HOLIDAYS SUCK ASS

HAPPY TURKEY DAY, MY FRIENDS!

Today represents the first Holiday Season, since I was a kid, that I am blessed to experience in a traditional way. I get to spend Thanksgiving AND Christmas with a friend's family in a home filled with love, encouragement and HOLIDAY CHEER.

NOW WHAT?

Me. Alone. Sitting on my gorgeous (donated) bed, in my luxury condo-it's like an Italian Villa.

Finally. Everything is OKAY.

I'm settled into a beautiful condo, in the heart of San Diego, right where I want to be, with everything I need in order to get back on my feet and get on with LIVING THE DREAM.

DREAM CHECK FRIDAY. OCTOBER 26, 2012

Hello Fellow Dreamers!

How was your, um, lately?

STRIKE #3 - THE NUTHOUSE

North Carolina BORES ME.

California so very much.

One of these days, I will get back there...

Additionally, this place scares the crap out of me.

The laws, people and priorities are bizarre, make no sense and, seem to perpetuate the crime, sadness and laziness prevalent in this part of the country.

AMAZING GRACE HAS SAVED ME

Walking through the busy streets of Asheville, my heart is racing almost as fast as my thoughts. Tolstoy struggles to keep up. I want to get to where I'm going as quickly as I can because I am scared to death - of everyone and everything.

IT'S GOTTA SUCK TO BE *YOU* - updated

THE FINAL VIPER

First of all, let me begin by saying that not everyone in my life has screwed me over.

In fact, more often than not, I find people to be wonderful and kind. I have loads of friends all over the world whom I positively adore and they me.

This blog is not about EVERYONE in my life.

It is about the people who wronged me.

I write these stories because I need to.

MY LIFE ROCKS THE FREAKING PLANET!

YO. Howsit? Long time no write, I know. This no computer thing sucks ass...I miss yous, my blog and my online friends more than I could express in words! 

DREAM CHECK FRIDAY, SEPTEMBER 23, 2011 UPDATED

Hello Fellow Dreamers!


How was your week? Mine was um, well, frustrating and great all at the same time!

A BATTLEFIELD IS NO PLACE FOR CHILDREN! (UPDATED 9/17)

We'll Be Okay, Tolstoy. xoxo

I am an orphan with no family and no sense of community at all because I grew up believing that every one of my family members abandoned me because they suck.

That was my mother's version of the truth.

She passed it on to me at an early age. I wore her words with honor, as I defended her to anyone who had the nerve to say anything bad about the only family member I was ever allowed to know.

ONTO PLAN B

A quick webcam shot of the backyard, where I almost lived.

"You can only help people who want to be helped."

I cannot think of any situation where this saying is more applicable, than in the case of substance abuse.

My new "boss" and her husband are substance abusers. I knew that when I signed up to move into their house to assist in the lady's cleaning business and drive her around.

I'VE FOUND MY VOICE

So, yeah. I've taken an ass-kicking like no other I've experienced. One thing is certain, I've changed. As I sit here, typing, I am a ball of mush, ready and willing to do just about whatever I have to do, in order to be the person I've always wanted to be.

NO. I will never go back to Alcoholics Anonymous. No. I will never get sober. I am not POWERLESS. I've proved it to myself and others over and over. My book, "VIPERIZE ME," will prove it to you.

MUST BE NICE!

ME GIVING CUNTESSA THE FINGER FROM THE CAR/LIFE SHE STOLE FROM ME.
YOU HATE ME BECAUSE YOU WISH YOU COULD BE ME, FEEL THREATENED BY ME AND YOU HATE YOURSELF, WITH GOOD REASON.
 YOUR DEATH WILL BE THE HAPPIEST DAY OF MY LIFE, FOR I WILL FINALLY BE FREE FROM THE UTTER DISGRACE THAT IS YOU.
LET IT BE SOON.
GOOD RIDDANCE YOU HATEFUL, MALICIOUS CUNT.

My mother was in the Marines for SIX MONTHS in her late teens. About thirteen years ago, when she was destitute, broke and sleeping on someone's couch, she got wind of the fact that she MAY be eligible for Veteran's benefits.

More than thirty years after she was discharged, early, for "acting up," she concocted a story that she was RAPED in the service, then remained unemployed and fought the military for eight years, while I SUPPORTED HER GREEDY DEMANDS.

GREY HOUND BUS SUCKS ASS!

"Let us do the driving for you!" (as long as you don't mind that it will take FOREVER and we are gonna abuse the shit out of you and grossly mishandle and LOSE your belongings!!)

Every single time I think the nightmare that is my life will end, it GETS FUCKING WORSE!

As if I hadn't already lost ENOUGH, I've now LOST IT ALL.

You know, between CUNTESSA and the VIPERS I've met along the way, I'm down to next to nothing.

I no longer have a single piece of furniture left from my fully furnished two bedroom apartment on the beach in San Diego. My mom stole it all, then the scum bags at Budget Suites helped themselves to my electronics, including my prized digital camera, which comes in quite handy for a blogger. *GAH*

VIPERIZE ME SUMMARY AND CHAPTER LIST - UPDATED 10/10/11

What would you do if you lost everything you own in the world and every single person in it at the same time?

What if you found out the person closest to you betrayed you in a way that cannot be forgiven?·

DREAM CHECK FRIDAY, JULY 29, 2011

Hello Fellow Dreamers! How have you been?

I've been through absolute hell in five LONG months, but I am working on another plan to ESCAPE LOST WAGES for good! I CFW to get the hell out of here! I'll never look back! I swear, the West is nowhere for a sensitive, gullible chick, like me! I'm out of here!

A WARM FAREWELL FROM GO-GO RACH - ALMOST THE FINAL RANT (WITH LOVE)

Great Job, Cuntessa! 

Dear Friends, Enemies and Folks Who Found Me By Mistake,

It is with great regret, that I have decided to stop posting on this blog.  I have no idea if this is a permanent decision.  I may start posting again in the future. I may not. I may start another blog someday.  I may not. 

DREAM CHECK FRIDAY MAY 20, 2011

Hello Fellow Dreamers!  How was your week??

HOW STUPID COULD I BE?

Enjoy another laugh at my expense.

My life is totally fucked.  As bad as it could get.  Now I am stuck in the middle of Las Vegas, without a way to get to the store to buy water, food, or anything else I need because I am STUPID.

I AM THE POSTMODERN JOB

A Female Job Makes Perfect Sense In Postmodern Society

"The Bible says a person must lose everything in order to change the world."

By the time I made it to the Welfare office in Oakland, CA, I was in a total panic. Never, in a million years, would I have thought I'd  be homeless. I focused my attention on my list of things to do to get back on my feet, while I tried to stay positive.

IN YOUR DREAMS, SHERLOCK!

Would you believe SHERLOCK tried to hit this again?  
 
Yup. He's that same dude who stole my affection, heart, faith, and vitality with a bunch of lies because he wants what he wants when he wants it.  I used to think I fell for hard for him, now I realize I fell for the illusion he made up to get me.