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I don’t need an introduction.


I spent 21 years under the spell of THE CULT we call THE TWELVES STEPS, culminating with the suicide of an amazing man who deserves to be remembered.

When my  A.A. sponsor attacked me, I left the dysfunctional people and THE CULT behind.  I WISH I could take those years back.  

Since I cannot, I will spend the rest of my life sharing my story in an effort to raise awareness about what Twelve Step Dogma did to me and the millions of others around the globe who are victimized by "the program."

The tragic death of a talented journalist, photographer, writer and friend coupled with the fact that I came close to taking my own life, as I continued to flounder the A.A. Way, has convinced me to share my story with you.

My greatest hope is to destroy the idea that the twelve step model is the best way to deal with substance abuse because our experience proves it is not.

Welcome to  Please grab a cup of coffee, or whatever you need.  I hope you will stay a while.


Go-Go Rach

This blog is dedicated in loving memory to Adam Harju June 23, 1969 - April 26, 2010.

I miss you, I love you and I wish you were here.  May you rest in peace, my friend.

Please  click here to get to Adam's Blog located at

DeConstrucor's Comment In Response to LETTER TO MY "FRIENDS" IN AA (page above)

"Brav fucking O.....Standing O fucking Vation. Or perhaps the Charlie Daniels quote from the Geico commercial of "thats how you do it son"

That was incredible.

Reminded me a little of "the letter" at the end of the Breakfast Club (perhaps the greatest movie ever)

Keep it up, dont be afraid to kick them in the teeth once in a while.

Always remember that its the misfits, the rebels, and the troublemakers that are the ones that change the world."

He post the following video at the end of his comment.

Thank you, my friend.
I am both Flattered and HONORED.

*This Video is here to support Decon's Words, not OBAMA (or any politician for that matter, since I've never been allowed to vote) Sincerely, Go-Go Rach.