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THE DIARY OF A CHICK WHO WALKED AWAY FROM ALCOHOLICS ANONYMOUS (THE CULT)

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Sunday, December 4, 2022

Fourteen


It’s been almost twelve years since my mother kicked me out the first time. Unfortunately, I don’t have anything left to support the second time (actually, it was the FIFTH, but who the fuck really cares, anyway?)
Nobody.
At.
All.
Although I was used to that, I hadn’t expected to go through HELL. I hadn’t expected to find myself an aunt-unwanted. Of course. Things really suck. I’ve got nowhere to go from here. I don’t want to go anywhere from here.I just want to be DONE.
I’ll admit, I am so sad. My brother hates me. So does my mom. And, apparently, I’m never gonna get to meet the kid. 
It sucks almost as much as knowing your mom hates you.
Although I’ve done my best to move on, I simply can’t.
How does one reconcile being hated? Dismissed? Forever? And EVER?  I’m nothing to nobody. I’ll never be anyone to anybody. Ever. 
It’s been FOURTEEN YEARS. 
I’m old. 
I’m tired. 
All of my friends are DEAD, or, they've abandoned me.
Just like me. 
Only, they’re free. Free from this flesh I cannot stand.
FOURTEEN YEARS.
Is a long time.
Too long.
Way too long.
Fuck fifteen.
Peace OUT.

  

Saturday, December 8, 2012

SEVEN YEARS OF FREEDOM, WITH AMY LEE COY


Author. Blogger. Musician. Wife. Daughter...

*MENTOR.*

*LIVING/LOVING HER OWN *LIFE* 

 *THE FIRST EVER, CERTIFIED SELF RECOVERY COACH.* 

 A wonderful, amazing person, whom I am proud to call "FRIEND." 

Her words, encouragement and book stay with me, through every moment, while I walk my own path to FREEDOM.

Friday, December 7, 2012

DREAM CHECK FRIDAY, DECEMBER 7, 2012


Hello Fellow Dreamers!

How was your week? 

Mine was wonderful, since I moved into my new *HOME!* My roommate is just as amazing as I thought she was when we met. She works hard, plays hard and has a great life. 

Wednesday, December 5, 2012

"MAKE A WISH" UPDATED



This morning I woke in my new place. For the first time, in nearly twenty-two months, I feel one hundred percent safe, happy and *HOME,* at last. I humbly thank God for every single blessing I've received. I moved out of another terrible situation into one that seems to be exactly what I need.

Saturday, December 1, 2012

S*&^% HAPPENS!



When my roommate, his girlfriend and I had a conversation the other day about the move, they blew off my utter melt-down with the term, "SHIT HAPPENS." 

Friday, November 30, 2012

DREAM CHECK FRIDAY, NOVEMBER 30, 2012



Hello Fellow Dreamers!

How was your week? 

Mine?

Wednesday, November 28, 2012

LIFE SUCKS THEN YOU DIE A POEM WRITTEN BY GO-GO RACH (2010)



A Poem written by Go-Go Rach
in
October 2010 

LIFE SUCKS.  THEN YOU DIE

Some of us just suck oxygen.

Saturday, November 24, 2012

DREAM CHECK FRIDAY, NOVEMBER 23, 2012


Hello Fellow Dreamers! How'sit? 

I hope you all had a wonderful Thanksgiving, in the company of family and close friends who treat you with respect, dignity and honor, as we all deserve.

Thursday, November 22, 2012

HOLIDAYS SUCK ASS




HAPPY TURKEY DAY, MY FRIENDS!

Today represents the first Holiday Season, since I was a kid, that I am blessed to experience in a traditional way. I get to spend Thanksgiving AND Christmas with a friend's family in a home filled with love, encouragement and HOLIDAY CHEER.

DeConstrucor's Comment In Response to LETTER TO MY "FRIENDS" IN AA (page above)

"Brav fucking O.....Standing O fucking Vation. Or perhaps the Charlie Daniels quote from the Geico commercial of "thats how you do it son"

That was incredible.

Reminded me a little of "the letter" at the end of the Breakfast Club (perhaps the greatest movie ever)

Keep it up, dont be afraid to kick them in the teeth once in a while.

Always remember that its the misfits, the rebels, and the troublemakers that are the ones that change the world."

He post the following video at the end of his comment.

Thank you, my friend.
I am both Flattered and HONORED.
*STINKIN THINKAS UNITE!*


*This Video is here to support Decon's Words, not OBAMA (or any politician for that matter, since I've never been allowed to vote) Sincerely, Go-Go Rach.