When I made it back to CALI, I did a little dance in my car. I AM BACK to where I belong. Mom, Dad, I don't know what the hell you were thinking, but I am a CALIFORNIA GIRL through and through. I love it here and the only reason I am ever leaving this place again is to travel. OR MEET MY HUBBY, if he is from somewhere else. Er, if I get to have a hubby...
Ahem, BRITISH applicants who are educated, independent, self actualized and BRILLIANT need apply. Go-Go Rach ain't settling for anything less (unless you are one Mr. Scott, I may make an exception for you. Yeah. Really.) Just kiddin'!
Er, about the BRIT requirement - although some of my hottest lovers where from your part of the world!
Anyway. I had no idea there are nice parts of Oakland! Saweet McJesus, my buddy from Emerson lives here! His place is positively beautiful! It's an adorable cottage, in a private neighborhood, with a yard, and smiling neighbors. I am stoked outta my mind. *happy dance* It's gonna be fun to hang out with him. I can stay for a whole week before his roomie will start to trip, then I gotta find a place to land. I feel positive that everything will work out just fine.
Praise the Universe I am back in California. I can breathe again. Now I gotta get a job.
Benefit Cosmetics needs a sales associate, so I applied. I think it will be fun as hell to help rich women spend their money to feel and look stunning. Oh how I do adore make-up! Benefit is magic. Really. I love it. Sure, I kick it in track suits and sneakers most of the time, but I look smoking freaking hot when I go to work or out on the town. I hope I'll get an interview there, but I plan to apply anywhere and everywhere, I need a JOB. A.S.A.P.! *FINGAS CROSSED*
I got a lot of shit to do and, I gotta do it FAST. I'm working on a list. One thing I gotta say is that I am looking forward to this being the last time for a WHILE! Of course, you never know. My life is a PIN BALL MACHINE, after all. I'm getting so I don't mind so much anymore. *shrugs* It is what it is.
HIT ME. I'm READY. XXX
I hope my mother will stay true to her word and return my things. I'm especially attached to my books. As I've said many times before, I AM A BOOK WHORE. I read fast and I read LOTS. I brought the ones I think are important for now - yeah, that was a CHALLENGE!
Tolstoy's return is a given, since he and my mom's pug fight. I am almost happy about that one. I really need my little man. I imagine his old heart is breaking right now without me. I hope not. I hope he's just hanging out, knowing I will be back to get him VERY SOON. I am grateful that my mother did not throw him out onto the streets, too. As much as I hate not having him with me, I know it's gonna be a lot easier for me to get my shit together without him here. This sucks. I can't wait to see him. SOON.
This is what is on the agenda for Go-Go Rach:
Job, place to live, Tolstoy back, and my favorite things are gonna surround me shortly as I embark on the newest and BESTEST phase of my journey. I am making it, friends. I don't know if I would be here, if it wasn't for you. I hope that isn't too sappy, 'cuz it's true. I want you all to know how very much I appreciate you.
The best thing about the people I am close to now that I have left THE CULT is that I don't have to do anything for you all to like me, or be my friend. You just want me to be the best me that I can be. I thank you for that. I am gonna make you all proud. I promise. You have my word. I don't give it very often, so BELIEVE IT. I mean it and I am STOKED YOU ARE ALL HERE. *smooch*
Talk about *true friends*
I haven't seen my homie since the early nineties when we were hanging out at Emerson, acting a fool, like kids do. We got in touch on the face book a while back. I told him about my predicament when the shit hit the fan and he didn't hesitate to help me out of a real jam. He has completely taken me into his home, fed me, smoked me out and given me a bunch of hugs and support for the shit I just went through with my mom. He loves me and is happy to see me, even after all of these years and the situation I'm in.
*True Friendship ROCKS* Enormous thanks goes out to him. *big tight hugs*
I'm thrilled to be OUT OF THE SHITTY OF SIN, I tell ya! *WHEW*
Tomorrow I get to talk to my friend about the resources available here for homeless folks like me (GAH). I hope it is not that hard to get plugged in and I am happy the services are available. I never thought I'd have to apply for social services again, but I do. Since I've paid taxes forever, I guess I won't feel bad about taking advantage of what they offer. Especially since I NEED IT. LAME, but TRUE. Temporarily.
As another homie told me recently, "independence comes with a price, called LOSS." He is 100% correct, and it KILLS. However, what I have gained through this whole process is more valuable than anything I am leaving behind in reference to people who SUCK ASS. I have a whole new perspective on myself, my life and what my future looks like. That is because I have *TRUE FRIENDS* that are a bonus of choosing what and whom I want in my life and what and whom I don't. It *ROCKS*
BIG FAT THANKS, AGAIN, YOU GUYS! I LOVE YOUS! XXX
See ya on DREAM CHECK FRIDAY. I hope to have GOOD NEWS!
'Till Next Time,
