I wrote a letter in response to him that I have decided to make a blanket statement to all of my "friends" in AA.
To All of the People Whom I Met While I Was In The Various Halls of Twelve Step Programs:
Sobriety...eh. I'm over it. My sponsor attacking me was the final straw. I will never be coming back to the program, in fact I HOPE TO DESTROY IT. My life there was truly *AWFUL.* I'd rather be dead. I am not alone in my experience and I want to help people get better in a way that works. AA doesn't. Take a look at the THE NUMBERS HERE (ORANGE PAPERS).
Since I left AA, well over a year ago, I've taken a strong look at myself and my life. I have come to the conclusion that POWERLESSNESS IS A LIE and a way for me (and others) to escape responsibility for myself, my life and my emotions, which is a cop out for children, foolish for grown ups AND DEFINITELY NOT FOR ME.
As far as Twelve Step Programs, I will be frank with you. I spent TWENTY ONE YEARS in and out of the rooms, failing because I was brainwashed to believe in the bullshit (Powerlessness) that program promotes by some of the sickest people on the planet (NOT SAYING YOU-unless you show me that or have shown it to me).
Like a lot of people who have sought support for compulsive behavior, I was nearly pushed over the edge by members who are encouraged to perform a function they are ill equipped to handle, regardless of HOW LONG THEY HAVE REMAINED "SOBER" (or may claim to be, in A LOT of cases).
I do not believe a break in abstinence has to result in jails, institutions or death. It sickens me that people are encouraged to staple this LIE to their hearts in the program. These horrors become reality for those who "relapse" in the program FAR TOO OFTEN, as a result of Twelve Step brainwashing.
I do not believe it is healthy or necessary to shame or ostracize a person who is struggling with their decision to stay clean. Personally, I think this method is sick and only appropriate when a person is training to be in the military.
Finally, I think Twelve Step Programs are a a tragedy that has been shoved down the throats of way too many victims of our own choices (e.g. not growing the hell up). Society has no clue there are other options, so this program is promoted because we are DESPERATE for a cure for addiction. ________ Anonymous is not the answer or cure for this problem. Twelve Step Programs fail because they SUCK. This will remain my opinion.
I'm sorry to offend your sensibilities. I have been there, done that on and off for TWENTY ONE YEARS. I saw it with my own eyes. I know what I am talking about.
*HERE ARE THE FACTS*
*People are killing themselves (SEE ABOUT THIS BLOG under my blog title: LIVING THE DREAM)
*People are being taken advantage of and robbed by people they meet in Twelve Step Groups.
I'm way too focused on building my success to be bothered to try to make friends with people who do not know how. I've wasted way too much time and energy on that. I'm done.
So, the ball is in your court. Let me know what you decide. In the meantime, please know that I am still gonna build my future on spreading my thoughts and opinions as a victim of what I believe, with every fiber of my being, to be a DANGEROUS CULT that should to be illegal.
If you can deal with this, great, if not, I wish you the best in your future.