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Go-Go Rach  once was a girl whose world was controlled by the idea that she was POWERLESS. After a chain of events, she realized she'd been lied to. Now she does whatever she wants, whenever she wants, with whomever she chooses to do it with.

Her blog chronicles the horrors she experienced in the halls of Alcoholics Anonymous (THE CULT) and the wonderful things she does now that she's escaped. *IF SHE BIT HER TONGUE ANY LONGER, IT WOULD BLEED!*

Her life is pretty GREAT.

Wednesday, January 12, 2011



Howsit?  I feel like I've been away forever; it's only been a few days.  I love yous and my blog.  I miss hanging out with you guys all the time.  SO MUCH.  I'm gonna try to make a video tomorrow or the next day.  I dyed my hair a funky color by mistake.  It's fixed.  So, fingas crossed, the light is good...

I'm grateful for my new position.  I found out today my title is ACCOUNT MANGER.  Pretty frickin' saweet, huh?  I'm working for a really great firm for great people, with great people.  Truly, I couldn't be more pleased.  I plan on staying for a while, and I really hope they'll keep me.  That is why I am a little upset at the moment because news of my blog has been leaked.

Truth be told, I mentioned it.  It was quite innocent, really.  I spilled it during my interview when my boss  asked me about my Internet/computer knowledge.   I am proud of the of this blog, so I didn't even think about the content when I told him WITH PRIDE a little about it.  Of course, I said it is very controversial, being against A.A., and all.

He said he worked in a treatment center and agrees with me that POWERLESSNESS IS A LIE THAT SUCKS ASS.  I made it clear to him that it would be hard to find, unless you know my handle, since I keep everything separate, usually. 

Assuming that would be the end of it, I wasn't worried.  Until he mentioned I have a blog that has porn (er, that was a joke) during a staff meeting.  Of course, people asked about it, and I did not lie.  I explained the Go-Go Rach persona and the content, then gave a few people my URL.  YUP I DID.  I believe what happened to me in THE ROOMS was wrong and I want to STOP IT from happening to others.  I can't waiver, or hide from anyone.

How could I call myself an ACTIVIST if I keep it a secret?  I live like I mean it and PRACTICE WHAT I PREACH.  My message is too important for me to shrink before anyone.  

Even my family.  Even my friends.  Even my job.  People are dying.

For a minute, I got scared.  I thought, MCJESUS, what the hell was I thinking?  Now they will find out about my past.  That may not be good.  SHIT.  What if I get fired?  What to do? What to do?

I have to ask myself why on earth I would do something so stupid, when I SHOULD not have said it?

Then, I thought about all the people who have come forward about what happened to them in THE CULT.  They need and deserve a voice, I believe I am here to give it to them.  I have to give it to them.  I have to and I want to.  Plus, who knows who they know? Maybe one of my co-workers will think twice about what they are doing before shoving someone they love into THE CULT.

Maybe I should not have said anything, but I would be a sell out if I held back.  CHANGE NEEDS TO HAPPEN.  It won't if I stay quiet, or ashamed, especially since I'm not.  In fact, I am quite proud of myself and what we're doing.  The past is the past.  I am WHOLE.  I would never do any of the things I've talked about here again, because I have MYSELF and MY LIFE back.  I make my choices today, based on LOVING myself.  I gotta stand by my decision. 

It is what it is.  I hope I don't lose my job because I LOVE IT and I am a killla sales person.  It would suck if I was fired, but it would suck more if I kept my mouth shut.  So, I'll keep ya posted 'cuz THEY KNOW...


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DeConstrucor's Comment In Response to LETTER TO MY "FRIENDS" IN AA (page above)

"Brav fucking O.....Standing O fucking Vation. Or perhaps the Charlie Daniels quote from the Geico commercial of "thats how you do it son"

That was incredible.

Reminded me a little of "the letter" at the end of the Breakfast Club (perhaps the greatest movie ever)

Keep it up, dont be afraid to kick them in the teeth once in a while.

Always remember that its the misfits, the rebels, and the troublemakers that are the ones that change the world."

He post the following video at the end of his comment.

Thank you, my friend.
I am both Flattered and HONORED.

*This Video is here to support Decon's Words, not OBAMA (or any politician for that matter, since I've never been allowed to vote) Sincerely, Go-Go Rach.