Why the change, you ask?
Well, I started blogging last year with a lot of excitement and promise in my heart and soul. I was excited about life and all of the possibilities before me.
I set out to write a book about my life and was certain I had everyone's support, since I was finally doing something productive with my life.
My blog was getting a lot of attention and my fan page on Facebook was growing every day. I got brave, and wrote a few posts about my father that where appropriate, based on what my mom had me brainwashed to believe. I knew he'd be hurt, but I did not expect the intense cruelty of his response.
Dad's comments where understandably angry, then my brother jumped on the bandwagon to add insult to injury. He told me he hates my guts and that I should have killed myself a long time ago.
These where low blows that knocked me off my pedestal so far to the ground that I actually did contemplate offing myself for once and for all!
Enough was enough, so I thought.
As I always did when I was in "recovery," I let others dictate who I was and how I ought to feel. I was hurt, so I took it out on myself, with a vengeance. In a fit of emotion, I tore down my fan page and my blog, then deleted about 500 friends from my Facebook account. I even stopped writing completely for nearly six months!
All the while my blog was calling me and this little voice in the back of my head kept saying "But, Rachel, you CAN DO THIS!"
OB Rach is now Go-Go Rach because there has been a change in my heart since I created my last blog. I no longer identify with Ocean Beach as my home After my AA sponsor attacked me and my friend committed suicide, I took a long break from AA and realized THIS GROUP (THE CULT) had been to blame for my floundering in life for nearly 21 years.
Needless to say, I was angry about this discovery...
I felt sure I am not the only one.
I began to investigate.
What I found is there are MILLIONS who feel the same way I do.
Imagine my shock when I discovered I AM NOT ALONE in my feelings or experiences in THE CULT.
Meeting fellow stinkin-thinkers around the web, began a dialogue with and for others who have been HURT, like me.
We are banding together to make a much needed and OVERDUE change in the way we treat people who choose substances over success..
Go-Go Rach was created with the intention of sharing my story in support of others who feel the same way.
Turns out, this is old news.
Yes, folks, people have been talking about this for YEARS, behind closed doors, as they struggled with the same shit I was going through.
Now it's time to take action.
OB RACH is the voice of a brain washed, confused and insecure little girl who had no idea who she was or what she wanted, exactly.
Go-Go Rach has a LOUD voice and the commitment to launch a REVOLUTION.
Go-Go Rach is a reflection of me now that I have embraced WHO I am and WHAT I want.
Go-Go Rach is ME GETTING IT.
Now that I am free from the brainwashing of the CULT, I have teamed up with a group that aims to stop12-step abuse and to RAISE awareness of all of the people around the GLOBE who have been HURT by the DOGMA promoted because society has settled on the WRONG solution.
Go-Go Rach has the solution AND she is not afraid to SAY it.
Go-Go Rach is appropriate because it is the mantra of my life: go-go you can do it. Jump in...it will be just fine.
Here I go!
More will be revealed.
Stay Tuned and,
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