Yup. He's that same dude who stole my affection, heart, faith, and vitality with a bunch of lies because he wants what he wants when he wants it. I used to think I fell for hard for him, now I realize I fell for the illusion he made up to get me.
As it turns out, I fucking HATE THIS DUDE. He is a weak suck puke with a false sense of entitlement to whatever he wants and a willingness to lie to get it.
Heads up, FUCKER, you cheat yourself AND everyone in your life every time you use deceit to get what you want.
It's no wonder your marriage can't be worked out. I'm sure you stole your wife's right to know who she married with some bullshit to make sure she fell in love with you.
I get it.
You fucking suck ass.
I have no respect for LIARS.
Or you.
For lots of reasons.
First is how you trashed ME and MY LIFE.
Second on the list of things I despise about you is that you go to THE CULT, say you are sober, yet use drugs and alcohol on a regular basis - you are the ultimate loser.
When I pressed for your intent, you claim you still go for "support.:" I'm curious, what does this pathetic waste of time support for you?
Perhaps it is your inability to form relationships with healthy people who will see right through your FACADE?
Your life is evidence of everything I NEVER WANT TO BE.
Please know, I never loved you. I loved your lie. Also, keep in mind that you met me right after my sponsor attacked me, so I was mighty vulnerable to you and the pack of vipers who introduced me to you.
Funny how gross you are to me now that I have a year of freedom from the brainwashing you are AFRAID TO LEAVE. I'm onto you. I can't believe I gave up my flawless skin to mask the pain that nearly killed me when I lost the person you PRETENDED to be.
And, I can't believe how fucking stupid I was to allow you to hog up my time and my heart for six full months, instead of building the life I want in the Bay Area!
You stole that time from me, while you led me to believe that our life would begin when your condo was finished. You even stooped so low that you talked to me about marriage, so we could start a family!
That's reprehensible, especially since I had come to terms with the fact that I am barren. I was FINE with that! You stirred the desire, for NO FUCKING REASON!
How destructive and selfish can you be?
Let me break it down for you, asshole.
You stole my affection, time and goal to live and work in the Bay Area with a bunch of empty promises you had no intention (or ability) to keep.
By the way, fucker, let me extend a big fat SUCK MY DICK for hijacking my dream. That was *AWESOME.* Even better is how vulnerable I was when ya shipped me back to my douche bag mother.
Did ya happen to notice how fast she jumped at the chance to royally fuck me over just because SHE COULD?
She stole everything I own in the world. then threw me into the street, like a piece of trash.
I know you are a selfish prick, but you aren't dumb.
You have to know the situation I'm in today is a direct result of your fucked up manipulation of me and my feelings this time last year.
If you had the courage to be HONEST, I'd be living in my own place there RIGHT NOW! I could have skipped the fucked up mama drama completely!
Instead, you said everything you thought I'd like to hear, to get what you want, without permission from me, or interest in MY WANTS.
Do you get it?
You could have helped me out of homelessness, after it happened, but ya chose not to.
You cried *BROKE*
Yet ya pay your wife extra money because YOU THINK you might have control over when she gets around to your divorce.
*tee-hee*
You have money to spend on the girlfriend you tried to hide, when I was in the condo you told me we would share one day...
"I use a Venus razor and fruity, Oil Of Olay Body Scrub because it works better!"
Come the fuck on!
That was a good one!
Do you honestly think I care about you or who you fuck?
Oh shit. Sorry, I know, you don't do HONESTY.
Let me rephrase for the biggest LIAR I've ever known.
*YEAH*
YOU.
Do you think I care about you or who you fuck?
Seriously?
I don't. Not even one single bit. Lie and fuck away, asshole.
You might want to adjust your game, if you aim to snag a woman, like me.
Lying is totally lame.
I fucking *HATE* liars. I expect people to give me the TRUTH, so I can make an informed decision. I wonder what makes you think you have the right to steal anyone's right to DECIDE?
Remember how you stole my right to protect myself from you? What do you think I would have done, if you were honest with me from the beginning?
You won't die or crumble if you tell it like it is.
Say it with me:
"I am a fucked up mess and I cannot decide what I want because, even though I am almost fifty years old (er, maybe older?), I have no clue (probably because I am a compulsive LIAR). I might get a divorce, I might not, but I'd like hang out and fuck you while I decide.My wife and I separate and fight all the time, but we get it on, whenever she let's me near her. Is that alright with you?"Note how the truth contains all of the required facts a decent person provides when they want something. What do you think would have happened had you told me the facts?
Take your time.
I know this is difficult for you. You seriously suck at managing YOUR life.
Look at what you've done to mine!
I'll never understand why you always lie, but that's YOUR PROBLEM, not mine.
Let's leave fantasy land behind for a minute, while we look at the REAL YOU, shall we?
Um, grab your helmet because the truth HURTS.
Excuse me while I finish laughing at you for thinking you could get me back. You truly are a legend in your own mind, huh?
You are dishonest.
Ruthlessly selfish.
You have loads of baggage.
Your priorities are totally fucked up.
You are FLAT broke.
You will be your wife's ATM 'till the day you die.
I am so far out of your league, it's hysterical that you tried this shit again. I mean, do you look in the mirror?
You do know you look OLD, right?
Um, like, GRAMPA OLD.
Bald, gray hair and saggy skin ain't my thing, silly.
I AM SMOKING FREAKING HOT.
YOU'RE NOT.
Your life, behavior, motives and methods are just as ugly AS YOU.
In a nut shell, Sherlock, you are a fucking idiot. The only reason you ever had me was because YOU LIED TO ME, when I was vulnerable, just like any common VIPER.
I'm not that girl anymore.
So, how did it feel today when you were on the other end of a LIE?
That's right. I LIED to you for an ENTIRE MONTH when I pretended to be stoked to see ya, let you book your trip, acting all excited, in spite of the shit hole your broke ass booked to fuck me in (or so you thought!).
I bet it sucks to be the LAST TO KNOW, huh?
Even though you don't deserve a single kindness from me, I gave ya a couple days notice - 'cuz I just cannot bring myself to be that mean TO ANYONE.
You deserved much worse, you selfish piece of shit. Who the hell do you think you are?
Even to the end, you violated me to do what YOU WANT! I was VERY CLEAR that I want you to leave me the fuck alone, so I can heal.
You will be you, so ya sent an email - that will remain unopened because you aren't worth a single second more of MY TIME. You get all you'll ever get from me, ya fucking VIPER!
Oh, and one more thing, what made you assume I'd take A LOUSY FUCK in a cheap ass motel room where I wouldn't let my DOG SLEEP?
Let me get a hit of whatever your smoking, because that shit must be good!
Oh, and by the way, I will never keep your secret from A.A.!!!
IN YOUR DREAMS, SHERLOCK!
'Till Next Time.
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