HIYA PEEPS!
Howsit? I feel like I've been away forever; it's only been a few days. I love yous and my blog. I miss hanging out with you guys all the time. SO MUCH. I'm gonna try to make a video tomorrow or the next day. I dyed my hair a funky color by mistake. It's fixed. So, fingas crossed, the light is good...
I'm grateful for my new position. I found out today my title is ACCOUNT MANGER. Pretty frickin' saweet, huh? I'm working for a really great firm for great people, with great people. Truly, I couldn't be more pleased. I plan on staying for a while, and I really hope they'll keep me. That is why I am a little upset at the moment because news of my blog has been leaked.
Truth be told, I mentioned it. It was quite innocent, really. I spilled it during my interview when my boss asked me about my Internet/computer knowledge. I am proud of the of this blog, so I didn't even think about the content when I told him WITH PRIDE a little about it. Of course, I said it is very controversial, being against A.A., and all.
He said he worked in a treatment center and agrees with me that POWERLESSNESS IS A LIE THAT SUCKS ASS. I made it clear to him that it would be hard to find, unless you know my handle, since I keep everything separate, usually.
Assuming that would be the end of it, I wasn't worried. Until he mentioned I have a blog that has porn (er, that was a joke) during a staff meeting. Of course, people asked about it, and I did not lie. I explained the Go-Go Rach persona and the content, then gave a few people my URL. YUP I DID. I believe what happened to me in THE ROOMS was wrong and I want to STOP IT from happening to others. I can't waiver, or hide from anyone.
How could I call myself an ACTIVIST if I keep it a secret? I live like I mean it and PRACTICE WHAT I PREACH. My message is too important for me to shrink before anyone.
Even my family. Even my friends. Even my job. People are dying.
For a minute, I got scared. I thought, MCJESUS, what the hell was I thinking? Now they will find out about my past. That may not be good. SHIT. What if I get fired? What to do? What to do?
I have to ask myself why on earth I would do something so stupid, when I SHOULD not have said it?
Then, I thought about all the people who have come forward about what happened to them in THE CULT. They need and deserve a voice, I believe I am here to give it to them. I have to give it to them. I have to and I want to. Plus, who knows who they know? Maybe one of my co-workers will think twice about what they are doing before shoving someone they love into THE CULT.
Maybe I should not have said anything, but I would be a sell out if I held back. CHANGE NEEDS TO HAPPEN. It won't if I stay quiet, or ashamed, especially since I'm not. In fact, I am quite proud of myself and what we're doing. The past is the past. I am WHOLE. I would never do any of the things I've talked about here again, because I have MYSELF and MY LIFE back. I make my choices today, based on LOVING myself. I gotta stand by my decision.
It is what it is. I hope I don't lose my job because I LOVE IT and I am a killla sales person. It would suck if I was fired, but it would suck more if I kept my mouth shut. So, I'll keep ya posted 'cuz THEY KNOW...
THAT'S WHAT'S UP.
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Howsit? I feel like I've been away forever; it's only been a few days. I love yous and my blog. I miss hanging out with you guys all the time. SO MUCH. I'm gonna try to make a video tomorrow or the next day. I dyed my hair a funky color by mistake. It's fixed. So, fingas crossed, the light is good...
I'm grateful for my new position. I found out today my title is ACCOUNT MANGER. Pretty frickin' saweet, huh? I'm working for a really great firm for great people, with great people. Truly, I couldn't be more pleased. I plan on staying for a while, and I really hope they'll keep me. That is why I am a little upset at the moment because news of my blog has been leaked.
Truth be told, I mentioned it. It was quite innocent, really. I spilled it during my interview when my boss asked me about my Internet/computer knowledge. I am proud of the of this blog, so I didn't even think about the content when I told him WITH PRIDE a little about it. Of course, I said it is very controversial, being against A.A., and all.
He said he worked in a treatment center and agrees with me that POWERLESSNESS IS A LIE THAT SUCKS ASS. I made it clear to him that it would be hard to find, unless you know my handle, since I keep everything separate, usually.
Assuming that would be the end of it, I wasn't worried. Until he mentioned I have a blog that has porn (er, that was a joke) during a staff meeting. Of course, people asked about it, and I did not lie. I explained the Go-Go Rach persona and the content, then gave a few people my URL. YUP I DID. I believe what happened to me in THE ROOMS was wrong and I want to STOP IT from happening to others. I can't waiver, or hide from anyone.
How could I call myself an ACTIVIST if I keep it a secret? I live like I mean it and PRACTICE WHAT I PREACH. My message is too important for me to shrink before anyone.
Even my family. Even my friends. Even my job. People are dying.
For a minute, I got scared. I thought, MCJESUS, what the hell was I thinking? Now they will find out about my past. That may not be good. SHIT. What if I get fired? What to do? What to do?
I have to ask myself why on earth I would do something so stupid, when I SHOULD not have said it?
Then, I thought about all the people who have come forward about what happened to them in THE CULT. They need and deserve a voice, I believe I am here to give it to them. I have to give it to them. I have to and I want to. Plus, who knows who they know? Maybe one of my co-workers will think twice about what they are doing before shoving someone they love into THE CULT.
Maybe I should not have said anything, but I would be a sell out if I held back. CHANGE NEEDS TO HAPPEN. It won't if I stay quiet, or ashamed, especially since I'm not. In fact, I am quite proud of myself and what we're doing. The past is the past. I am WHOLE. I would never do any of the things I've talked about here again, because I have MYSELF and MY LIFE back. I make my choices today, based on LOVING myself. I gotta stand by my decision.
It is what it is. I hope I don't lose my job because I LOVE IT and I am a killla sales person. It would suck if I was fired, but it would suck more if I kept my mouth shut. So, I'll keep ya posted 'cuz THEY KNOW...
THAT'S WHAT'S UP.
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